Squeezed!

Job list:

1. All inpatient work - screening, labeling, filling, counter checking, queries, DDA
2. Mon, Wed, Fri - partime counsellingSSS!
3. RVD-TB MTAC, biweekly
4. Monthly clinical meeting & data compilation
5. Monthly antibiotic usage
6. Antimalaria & antivenom report
7. All RVD-HAART counsellings in old block
8. Oncalls - A&E, 6PM-10PM, weekend call, lunch call
9. Expiry date monitoring
10. Monthly check & found in substore
11. KIV screening prescriptions in medical wards
12. QAP

I seriously not sure whether I'm overloaded with work or I'm just not capable enough.
I feel burdened and stressful. I am not superwoman. Lost.

Present tense

If only this light bulb can light up my mind and show me the path I should take.

Breathing underwater is indeed very therapeutic but going back to work and facing people that you dislike, working station that bring no satisfaction just bringing the level down drastically. 

I am now, not awesome again.

How I wish to be this mischievous boy, running around, making fun of others, stepping on parent's temper and yet not even a sign of afraid.

Life sucks, a present tense.

never good enough

Exactly a year ago, I was given the chance of practicing in the area that I enjoy the most.
But situation had changed, I am asked to leave, to work in another department.
Frankly, never been this sad and disappointed for awhile.

Will need to go back to my ward, to remove my belongings with my personal box on Monday.
I hope I can be strong enough to smile through the process.

I will definitely miss working with you guys.

Gosh, I felt like I just got fired.

Just to pen down something to remind me of this date.
I wonder, next year this time, where will I be?

D.R.E.A.M.

The sound of the rain drops reminded me how I used to live my life.

It is just so mundane right now.

Work is alright, but the obstacles are constantly present at the wrong timing.

Friends around me seems to be more direction conscious while I am still in the maze.

Entering the last quarter of the 2012 had just shook me up from the deep sleep.

There are too many dreams and too many "want"s to fulfill but am lacking of enthusiasm. 

I should really buck up now, pick up the pieces and move forward.

I just can not work aimlessly.

Yes, I have a dream, to be better, to be great.

Lost

When you are not in your fittest condition,
even a tiny bit of critics can make you depress.

What should I do?
I'm lost.

Felt love in Perhentian Kecil

After completing my open water diving course in Sept last year (2011),

me and my friend decided to breath 20m underwater again.

Since we had our course in Pulau Tioman, this time we headed to Pulau Perhentian Kecil.

Upon arrival, you'll be greeted by many boat transfer companies.

They will try their best to arrange car park for you if you're driving.

The boat transfer fees is quite fixed.

RM70 for a return ticket.

But if you had booked some snorkeling package/ diving package,

the transfer fees may be a bit cheaper at the rate of RM60.

Before going to Perhentian Kecil, we had done a little research on which dive center to go.

So far, Turtle Bay Diver (TBD) has the most good reviews from tripadvisor.

Some of the plus points are:

- credit card at no additional charges

- powered lens available with no additional charges

- RM70 for each dive, RM80 for Pinnacles & sugar wreck, discount of RM10 from the 5th dive on wards. 

We did not have booking for accommodation because we did not want to sign up any snorkeling/diving package prior to arrival.

TBD was very nice. 

They allowed us to put our luggage there so that we can go to look for our accommodation. 

Please do not be surprise about it. It is their way of doing things there.

Most of the hotels there do not take room booking unless you sign up packages from them.

There are a few nice hotels around but it would all depends on your budget and what you are looking for.

Fan room? Air-cond room? Hot water shower? 24hour electricity supply? willing to hike a bit?

These are the things that you need to consider before making your payment.

After walking under the scotching hot sun for almost an hour,

we decided to grab the rooms from the Shari-La resort, Coral Bay.

It is a 15mins jungle hiking from the Long Beach (where TBD was located)

but they got the best deal.

RM240/room for triple, 24hour electricity with breakfast provided.

We started our fun dives on the second day, 

time was scheduled at 9am but we did not know we need to be there by 830am.

So yeah, we were late!

But TBD again, they stressed that we are to enjoy and relax here, 

so they immediately rescheduled us to the next session which is on 11am with an on-call dive master, 

Emel from Denmark. 

my gear =D

Joe & Emel walking back to TBD

Emel & us after our last dive

Cheerful Fizzy & us

Gus & Wei

*Gus is Wei's open water course instructor*

Some random pictures took when we were waiting for our next dive

We did 4 dives altogether. 

Batu Layar:

suitable for beginners like us, very easy dive site,

enable you to get comfortable again with your gears and buoyancy.

Saw the first black tip reef shark there,

it was very very close to me as i was at the most right.

It swam around us for 2 rounds and left. It was very very nice!!

Shark Point:

Yes, it's called the Shark Point, expected to have a lot of sharks around but lady luck wasn't on our side.

The visibility was kinda bad, no shark found.

*Frown*

Pinnacles:

Oh, this is a very beautiful dive site. I strongly recommend this! 

and yes, even if you are still a beginner like me. 

You will be amazed by the schools of fishes.

Barracuda, Angel fish, Banners, Bumpheads, Bamboo Shark, sea snake, morays, eels, groupers, and etc.

T3:

If you like to swim through rocks and tunnels, this is one of the dive site that you will enjoy.

T3 is very rocky.

The visibility was very bad, strong currents, 

and it was cold down there unlike other dive sites which were warmer.

But they have the most beautiful nudybranches, and we finally got to see the turtles!

Gosh, turtles are beautiful.

This trip was really a rejuvenating one.

Breathing underwater enable me to temporarily clear my tangled thoughts

and it is addictive.

I am already planning my next diving trip already.

Rasa sayang, 

felt love at Pulau Perhentian by the sea & the sun.

happy 2012

cheers, for a better future, greater opportunities.

Happy 2012.