eu yan sang bak foong pill

oh, i didn't realized i didn't update for almost a week already.
my bad. sorry..=D


i'm such a weak girl.
i got all the bad genes from my paternal and maternal side, except for..being chubby..which i consider myself..quite lucky??



i have constipation since i'm very young. i was rushed to ED when i was in primary 1 for acute stomachache. it turned out to be nothing but was having too much faeces in me, making me ill.



i was diagnosed with lazy eyes when i was in my primary which i found out that my grandpa was literally blind at the young age, might be due to this problem too.
had to travel to kl on every Wednesday just to visit that doctor at Jalan Ipoh; spent hours sitting in front of that rotating machine, doodling on the plastic plates. luckily i love to draw, if not i'm sure it'll be such a pain in the ass for me..>.< style="font-style: italic;">lar.



then, i inherited the allergy gene from my dad. we both have rhinits. mine was quite bad. sneezing every morning, having running nose for weeks if the weather is bad. and never ever try to ask me to tidy the house. because i'll end up sneezing + running nose + sore eyes + fatigue at the end. i remember once, i was fetching my sis to school, i sneezed, and i saw blood on my tissue. freaking scary though..but it was just some minor capillaries injury, no big deal.



again, from my dad. we have really bad digestive system. let's talk only me.
i'll have severe gastric pain if i consume rice more than 2 times a day. even a table spoon of rice will make me ill. scary huh?

after joining college and university, when the stress level strikes, i'll have IBS (irritable bowel syndrome). continuous diarrhea for months, decreasing my appetite, can only have food intake of a cat's portion. it was the worst phase of my 24 years life. without any effort of exercise, my weight dropped 5kg, making me looked like a walking skeleton..and my complexion was really bad..dull to be exact.



lately, i experienced something new.
the 1st attack was in my secondary. when again i was having acute stomachache, i knew i need to go to the toilet, but it was so damn far. i was brisk walking and yet couldn't managed to get there in time and black out in the canteen. luckily i grabbed the chair in time, sat there and i think i black out awhile. students thought i was resting there since it's early in the morning before class.

2nd and 3rd attack were similar, but the location was at my own home. fainted in the toilet for awhile too..


4th attack was quite recent. i sprained my neck. instantly i felt that i couldn't breath, nausea and vomiting, couldn't stand and walk for around 15min i think. that was the scariest because i had panic attack too, it was the first time i thought i snapped my ligament or veins or what so ever..making me nauseated.



the latest attack was just few days ago, when i brought my mum and aunt to do their follow up in a private hospital. i paid the car park ticket and was walking towards my mum's car. and YES, i tripped and sprained my right ankle right infront of the main entrance of the hospital =.=. instantly, the aura came. i dare not step forward anymore because i know i'll get very weak and will not able to support myself. my sis ran and took care of me. she tried to walk me to the car but i was like a crab. i couldn't walk straight..my mum rushed down from the car too. i ended up squatting beside a car to let everything get over.

so, i realized my pain threshold is really low. my bro even asked me: will you faint if i suddenly poke you with a needle?? =.=


the amount i showed is just the 1/10 of the whole tiny bottle x(

it was then my mum decided to pamper me with this traditional supplement. i guess by looking at the pics, i think you already know what my mum got for me.
ya, it's the Eu Yan Sang Bak Foong Pill 余仁生金牌白凤丸
it's quite expensive and i was force to take it for my own health
*mum still nagging...lalala...*
i need 2 glasses of water just to finish that one tiny bottle of pills *kill me please, i hate swallowing pills!!!*

anyway, thanks mum, for taking good care of me.
love ya =D

viva attack

when are we meeting again??


just had my viva today.
others were quite satisfied with theirs,
but i'm not.

i'm not being skeptical or what,
but things just didn't turned out well.

supervisor had mentioned,
minor corrections include grammar mistakes, format..etc..
while major corrections include insufficient content, wrong methodology..etc..


i'm stucked between both,
and i don't know i'm skewed to the minor or to the major.

of course,
format of references and some spacing general problems
+
they think my results were too general..
they can be break down into more specific & detail..
=
alot, ALOT of alterations need to be done,
in TWO weeks time.


i'm doomed!

where's my twilight??

Viva, the day.

*taken in Bali 2009*

here i pray to my all mighty God,
may the viva will be a good one for me,
may i sail through it smoothly.
no severe injury from the shooting questions;
be able to stand on my feet and deliver what is in my mind.


thank you God.


scared yet excited.
after 19th Jan 2010,
final year project is officially sedate to sleep.
will put it to sleep after some final amendments been done.

good luck to me.
i seriously never hope for an A,
but at least a B or B+ will do me good.
or course A is even better..wahahhaha..
*can You hear me??*

*crossing fingers*

btw, good luck to all my friends, pray hard for them too!
let us all march out the viva room in one piece.

and don't forget our greatest weapon
*SMILE*

insomia

it's 4.23am 14th Jan 2010.
still wide awake at this wiiwang wang hour.
am tired;but not able to sleep.
possibly due to the increased age,
body can no longer tolerate with that small amount of caffeine.
i only had a glass of Teh-ais. thought it's nothing.

or was it because i read a friend's blog,
and was not able to get over it?
but i'm glad that she had finally overcome the hard feeling,
facing the obstacles alone far from hometown is terrible.
i'd not experience any of it,
but sincerely, i could feel what she was feeling from her blog.

frankly, i wasn't close to her during primary & secondary.
but i was amazed by her decision,
putting down the pride and head for her dream.
i was totally surprised by her move.
and she is now, realizing her dream,
while i'm still here,
looking at the stars, hoping they are the same on the other end of the horizon.

should i just step out of the box?
am i able to be that independent?
i cant even answer those questions myself.
pathetic.

it's a dream of mine, going to UK & europe at least once in my life time.
don't ask me why there?
am planning to go there after my graduation, at around june/july/aug this year.
but i don't even have any plan yet.
i don't know whose able to host me when i'm in UK *only for a few days*
i don't know whose wanna go to the Europe tour with me.
all the uncertainties.
just hate it.

how i wish i can just sign up for a 1 year course there.
so i can earn my own pocket money and travel to places i want myself,
without begging people to accommodate me/ bringing me around.
really hating the feeling..


*all the mid night thoughts ==> emo big time*

2010

*mr. Rayner. he's just too cute isn't it?*

a new year supposed to have a new beginning.
i think most of you started this year with new resolutions,
hoping to get rid of the bad and to welcome the good.

i think i'm not that lucky,
as in..
although i spent my new year moments with some beloved friends
bloating ourselves with ikan bakar + seafood
drinking icy cold milk tea at old town
while coughing my lungs out.
my bad i think,
i started this whole new 2010 with
a little frustration
some complications
reluctant
disappointment
and
don't feel like doing anything syndrome.

some told me,
the first half of 2010 isn't really a cup of tea for me
lots of obstacles
bumpy roads
but i'll overcome them
and i'll be enjoying on the 2nd half of 2010.

p.s: i'm having my last semester on the 1st half;
graduating on the 2nd half.
it's kinda true right?

hurmph..
wondering if my europe tour dream will come true.

p.s.s: who wanna go Uk with me? or whose willing to host me?? sigh..

1st day of sem 8

1st day of school is already killing me.
result was out. it was beyond expectation. no complain on it.
paid my final semester's fees. good.
knew my internal and external examiner for my research project.
oh ya, i got the 签王 (king of the lots??).
i hope she won't be too harsh on me. i hope i can still leave the room in one piece during viva.
not good.
research presentation on 13th jan & viva on 20th jan. not good.
He said we're getting lazier during the holiday. true. horrible.
left my lovely blanket at home. no blanket for a whole week. terrible.
i still have 2.25 of Twilight left. wondering where to slot in the time to finish them.
losing confident approaching the end of Bpharm. sucks.
*shaking head*

1st day of class,
and i was jeopardized with tonnes of complications.
hold on.
i will sail through smoothly.
i guess.

whispering...
*please, i only need to maintain my cGPA, don't be too harsh on me, only a B+ will do*



who is there to overdose me with happiness??

the great SHEN ZHEN

my bro and sis in law just got back from their honeymoon.
they went to hong kong & shen zhen (深圳).

he called and was excited about the pendrive he bought me from shen zhen.
it's a 400GB pendrive.

ya,you read me right!
it's 400GB!!!



here's how the pendrive looked like:



chiplak SONY

the look was ok isn't it??



but,
don't be too happy/ envy of me....

the left is the one from the pendrive; the right one is from my desktop
both showed in thumbnails
and
none from the left can be open/delete/transfer!

there's no preview;
file corrupted if you want to transfer the files;
files not readable if you try to delete them.

grrrrr............
>.<


sigh...
i really dunno what to say...

even my most brilliant brother got cheated..

RMB250 = RM125 = BURNT!!!!

that's why SHEN ZHEN(深圳) is the greatest 3C market...
to get cheated..


aww...i'm so miserable now..